You make up the title for this one

The writer of this blog conclude her lastings entry with "And, to close... I want to go on a date - a good date!!" I got me thinking, I would like to go on one good date this year too. Where did all the good women go? Okay on to other matters shall we... I don’t believe much in wise sayings but this one sure did come true. “The best laid plans often go astray!”

Well I had tall plans for this weekend, which was dismantled block by block by the new job! Hey but I can deal with it, you see the have been offereing overtime - a great deal of it. Why, you ask? My company - an bank - 10th largest in the nation has just completed the purchase of two other regional banks in Florida and we were very busy converting all their loan files over to our system. yes things at the bank was going pretty fine, till the point I thought “Hey hold on a sec, I have a break this weekend!” I guess that should have the starting point of all the things, coz after that all my plans went down the drain…

I woke up beaming on a beautiful Friday morning (Fridays are always beautiful - am i right?), the drudgery of work, but alas that wasn’t to be. I was given a rude shake by a phone call (My team mate) informing me that we are supposed to be at meeting by 9 and it was already 7:15am. I start at 7am, my power was out and my radio did not wake me up. I was dragging my feet to my luxurious bathroom (Should take the time here to boast about my flat: The place is an absolute dream, with a large single bedroom with the view of the gardens and room service to take care of meals, it couldn’t get better.) The shower felt unusually very good and comforting, but the phone rang again!! Damn, already I am late, from then on things were on fast forward mode. Mad rush to the closet, selecting something that looks like a jean and a shirt and running to the gourmet kitchen at speed of light to get some omlette and Corn-flakes, (a.k.a. slimfast shake) Things were going just as messed-up as expected! I finally get to work about 45 minutes late but all was cool as ... well see here they have what they call flex time so really I have no start time. If I am late i need only tostay and make up the time. I am still getting use to that. The joke was on me but hey I gopt to work in plenty of time for the meeting. The over time pay should be in my next pay and it should be NICE.

My blog

It has been many months since my last blog entry that had anthing to do with my feelings. It's not that I haven't had things about which I've wanted to blog -- I've had many. It's not that I haven't had the time to blog -- I've been incredibly busy, yes, but I could have made time for an entry every day or two expressing my feelings. Lately I have been posting willy-nilly not really saying much.

I haven't been blogging because I don't know why I'm doing it anymore. I don't mean to say that I find blogging pointless -- I certainly don't. What I mean to say is that I've come to realize that if I'm going to continue to blog, there needs to be a point to it other than keeping a public record of things I find interesting. I need an intended audience, and a reason they should care about what I have to say. Otherwise, I should just write down everything in a personal journal and keep it to myself.

In other words, I need a focus to this blog.

If I focus on my personal life and the things that would be interesting to my friends and family, then where do I blog about the things I find interesting about the world at large?

If I focus (if I can use that word in this sentence) on semi-random bits of trivia, then where do I blog about my personal life? And more importantly, does anyone care about semi-random bits of trivia anymore? That was how I came to be introduced to blogging -- by blogs without a core focus, simply brief pointers to items of interest interspersed with the occasional longer essay. And to be honest, I don't read any new blogs anymore -- I keep to my short list.

I'm thinking about splitting my blog into two halves. One half would be personal and probably interesting only to friends and family. The other half would be completely new and would be focused on a subject that is personally interesting to me, that is of interest to an audience in the larger world, and that I'm qualified to discuss. (I'm not ready to talk about the subject yet -- I'm still mulling over the precise definition.) This is attractive, but I'm worried about keeping up two blogs when I've been having trouble with only one. Then it occurred to me that I did create two blogs, then I'd have to decide what goes where. Do I retool this blog to be personal or to be popular? Or do I close out this blog and create two new blogs?

Feelin' way to dam good

I am feelin' way to dam good or perhaps it's just the three cups of coffee i had? Hey Nickelback has a song titled that... did you know?

Cool Hand Luke

No I was not watching this movie, althrough it was a good movie! Paul Newman was a great actor and only he could pull it off as Lucas 'Luke' Jackson. Anyway the photo is of the Mayor of the City of Pittsburgh... People say we should give the kid a chance but he has been Mayor now for almost two years and all he has done so for was act as a care-taker Mayor ever since the other one passed away. The city is ... currupt and the "read up picksburg" program makes us city folk sound like a bunch of uneducated fools. Why not just call it clean up Pittsburgh?!

Ironic

It's Ironic ... I am a banker work for a good company. No complaint about the job cause I feel I am treated well, I like the majority of the people I work with and well i can do without some of the auditors but over all it's good. Plus I get paid well for what I do anyway what is ironic is my company - the bank had just acquired two other banks in Florida, one of which dominated the South Florida area... thinking back to the day when i had a opportunity to move there for well that was another blog ago. Irony can be funny!

A developing story

(I deleted the photo) The photo is in fact the 23-year-old English major accused of exacting a bloody rampage at Virginia Tech. According to CNN he authored two plays so "twisted" that his classmates suspected he might be end up as a school shooter. His name is Cho Seung-hui. And he is not a native born American but he moved here from South Korea. A un-named university official also said that Cho scribed writings so "disturbing" they were sent to administrators, a university official said Tuesday. This official did not provide details about the writings, which first came to the attention of faculty in the English department, but said they were passed on to the department chairwoman and university administrators. Cho left a long and vitriolic note in his dorm room, law enforcement sources told ABC News. It contained an explanation of his actions and states, "You caused me to do this," ABC News reported. It also railed against "rich kids," "debauchery" and "deceitful charlatans" on campus.

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I was going to complained about the weather in how it is raining and has been raining for 3 days running... and it is cold but since yesterday afternoon I have been watching the news. Yeah you know why? What is up with the VA shooting? What makes a person set out to kill so many people? Guess the motive for the killing will be released shortly.

How very interesting

Aquarius April 14, 2007--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Don't erase this sense of limbo you're feeling. Your uncertainty is fueling this never-ending quest for information. The answer to an overwrought question will come during this precarious state of mind.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Yes answers to questions that i have... but when will i get those answers?!

Happy friday the 13th

May all your day end not in meeting Jason in a dark alley but ... okay i got nothing witty. Have a great day on this Friday the 13th!

Missing song title

There is a song that goes ... London's calling, the battle has begun... can't think of the name of the band... anyone know it? and the band?

Random thoughts this afternoon

It’s not my practice to be particularly personal in this blog, but since the main subjects I cover are … who am I kidding! Of course I get personal on my blog after all that is why I call it My Thoughts!

I am a writer or at least as for as this blog is concerned I am. To teach is my primary calling in life; I want to teach different things. I write lessons plans and design curriculum, but until recently I never had a opportunity to take one of my lesson plans and deliver it to an audience of children. Yesterday I did! It was amazing; I spent almost a half hour giving a lecture to 5th graders on the topic of geography. Yes I did very well if I am allowed to toot my own horn. Now you might be asking yourself are you finally a teacher? No not at this point yesterday was a day that I had to spend observing a class but I was allowed by the teacher to deliver a part of her lesson. Was it not nice of her? I was a bit nervous but after the first couple of minutes of feeling awkward and with the usual feeling that they are judging me I felt more at ease. I did a fine job teaching my pro-western variety of propaganda.

Work is fine, today I went on line on my company’s intranet, not to be confused with internet and posted for three positions within the bank. I am hoping I get one cause it would be nice to have a sense that I am moving up the chain.

I have another thought creeping up in me, the thought is this. I want to teach, but things are going well at the bank can I really afford to take a pay cut at this point in my life? I have been thinking my final general courses will be done and I have to pick a track what if instead of picking the state certification track I pick the college teaching track? Same number of courses, same outcomes only differences my students will be older and not young one? And I can teach at night well continuing to work as a banker. Some great benefits working for a large university… then again am I up to that big of a challenge?

Oh update on the Pittsburgh Penguins, my hometown hockey team… they made the play offs and tonight is a big night for them, yes the deciding game! Can they pull out a win?! I say can they pull out a win?!

Can they win the Stanley Cup?

The lazy blogger

If self professed bloggers become a tad bit too lazy to blog, then what do you call them?

It is most unfortunate (for me, at least) to be self diagnosed with laziness to blog which stemmed from the recent long weekend, although I don't suppose the long weekend had anything to do with it. Nevertheless, ideas have been bouncing back and forth... but I just didn't listen to my blogging instincts and stayed put watching reruns of Friends, listening to my good old mp3 player, tried to think of something for work. And for the first time, I did not feel that squirmy 'oh, I'm so bloody uncomfortable' feeling that I have felt a countless number of times when I have been denied blogging opportunities.

Anyway, I suddenly had the urge to blog again today... I suppose I missed the feel of the keyboard when I knew exactly what I was gonna type. It differs from the type, pause to read the ugly handwriting and then type again mode I employ when I type out reports.

Now that I've started the ball rolling, it's time to go get back all those ideas that are dancing around in my mind. I kept this post short as I didn't want to get bloggers shock!

Another cross roads on the oad of life

As the summer fast approaches I find myself at another cossoad on this jouney called life. I am remind of a sermon so here it is...

Two people at the crossroads of their lives express the theme of this Sunday's gospel. One turned back and the other is still deciding. Who are they both?

The first person is the man of our gospel, A Good man,be it noted, and also, be it noted, expressly loved by Jesus. "Teacher" he said, "what must I do to gain everlasting life?" Although wealthy he had the insight that wealth was not the answer to life. Jesus presents him with a crossroads decision. If you really want everlasting life, Jesus challenges him, let go of your wealth, sell what you have be my disciple. Silence must have followed accompanied by much pondering and hesitation. For that man it was decision time at the crossroads of his life. There was no question of choosing between good and evil. The issue was choosing between the good and the better. Would he take the road less travelled? Quietly, he turned around and moved away. He had chosen. He simply said no.

The second person who expresses the theme of this Sunday's gospel is you and me. Like that first person we are for the most part good people but always, always always we stand at the crossroad waiting to be not merely good people but disciples. Many things beckon us: surrender, heroism, sacrifice, a deeper spirituality, making a difference. Sometimes the call is to a quiet witness. The modern mystic Caryll Houselander said, "Sometimes it may seem to us that there is no purpose to our lives. That going day after day to this office or that school or factory is nothing else but waste and weariness, but it may be that God has sent us there because, but for us Christ would not he there. If our being there means that Christ is there, that alone makes it worthwhile." Maybe we're called to that: to be ‘more’ Christ where we are.

How many times do we all stand at the crossroads? How many times does Jesus tell us he loves us...and then ask from us a bit more? All of us know, deep down, that almost daily we stand at the crossroads. True, we might say, we have the invitation of Jesus under consideration.