The blues

We all know that life has its ups and downs. We somehow accept the ups as natural and the downs as treatable. A huge segment of western society is based on eliminating, alleviating, and curing the blues. (think of all the anti-depression medications available) Yet deigning the blues is deigning what makes us human. The blues suck and now I have them again. I ask myself why am I in this state. My job is going great, I love banking and its people, my co-workers are wonderful, and I don’t even have any issues with the management. There is no apparent reason for my mental condition. Past bouts with the blues have lead me to seek its causes in others and outside of myself. This process gives me temporary relief and a superior feeling of blaming others. It is a quick fix but doesn’t guarantee the recurrence of the blues.This morning I looked in the mirror. There starring at me was the source of my blues. Me. How could I be so stupid not to realize my blues are simply the readjustment of my expectations with the reality of my situation?To eliminate the blues I would have to forgo expectations or even worse reality! I somehow have to come to grips with the fact that my wishes may not come true. I have to learn from my neighbors to accept the downs of life on fate as I would accept life’s gifts. I need to smell the flowers around my house, make a lei of them, and give it to someone else. I need to step back, create new expectations and be ready to accept my fallibility whenever my expectations clash with oncoming reality.Let the blues come. I don’t like you, but I know that the crest follows the trough. I want to enjoy the thrill of rough seas.